May 20, 2008

Home Life

Every where I go eight sets of paws follow me. Well, really only six. Julie doesn't move unless she thinks there is food at the end of the journey.

It's spring in Minnesota, which is nice because it means I got to experience the season twice. It's green here, but in a different way than it's green in Atlanta. It's a farmy-er green, if that makes sense. There are fewer blooms and more leaves. Fewer hills and more pasture. But I can see a lake just beyond our back yard and the water sparkles through budding limbs. There are so many lakes here that some of them are not lived on. They're too marshy or too shallow for decent fishing, Aaron tells me. So people don't live on them, because why would they? There's another lake around the corner.

I'm trying to make the most of being out of work, because it looks like I'll be starting a new job in the next few weeks and while I look forward to a paycheck and a schedule, it sure was nice to get up and drink coffee and sit on the deck and watch the dogs play.

Even though there is a wedding band on my finger, I sometimes forget that the wedding already happened. I might be experiencing some kind of post-wedding blues, because I'm sad I won't ever have that experience again. But in other ways I am thrilled I won't ever have to plan another one! It was so much work, and I'm amazed I pulled it off. It was a spectacular day and before too many of the details escape me, I should hurry and get them down.

I'm married now and it's different and the same. It's wonderful and yet I still grieve in small ways for my old life. I miss Georgia, but I also feel completely at home here. And I guess that's the way it was meant to be.

Posted by hannah at 04:40 PM