December 15, 2005
Blah Humbug
Today is not a good day. I started the morning by forgetting my cell phone, being late to work and walking into my office to a ringing phone and a woman on it yelling at me. It's rainy outside and people are freaking out because of the ICE, dear god, the ICE!
The weather in Ohio is terrible and if for some reason I am unable to drive home for Christmas, well, that would be just about the worst thing in the world. It was awful last year and I still made it, but it's always a risk. I'm keeping up hope.
Somehow in the next seven days I have to squeeze in baking, wrapping, finishing cards and shopping and somehow go on three dates. Complain, complain, I know.
I read about this book where a woman said yes to anyone who asked her out over a year period. She ended up going on dates with around 150 guys and 2 women. It's a strategy I'm trying to employ, but it is exhausting because when I'm not interested in someone, it's usually a safe assumption that they'll be crazy about me. And I am incapable of saying no to a second or third, or god help me, fourth date. It's a cycle I need to learn to break, but right now I have no time.
Last night I went to a happy hour with some friends and he was there and it was uncomfortable and awful. It was only the second time I've seen him in a month and he couldn't understand why I tensed up every time he tried to hug me. "Well, you look beautiful," he said. I had no words - still don't. It is what it is and it sucks, but you can't change people and it's a lesson I've learned over and over again. When someone shows you who they are, BELIEVE them. I need to keep learning it - hopefully one day it will stick.
Posted by hannah at 09:44 AM
I totally did the "Just Say Yes" program, January-early March of 2000. I would have been up for it longer, but started going out with my husband. High, high reccomendations to keep trying as long as you a) keep things very, very "light" b) make it over-abundantly clear to all participants that you are in the "J.S.Y." program. It can be fun- Here are a sampling of some of the dates I went on: A couple of dates with a GORGEOUS (read: he models) old friend of mine - it was like that scene from Back to the Future where M.J. Fox kisses his mom - blech! A lunch date with a client who did nothing but talk about how "over his ex-girlfriend from two years ago" he was ....riiiight. A date with a guy I met and picked up on a bus bench who ended up smelling like patchtouli and stank indoors... Really, it was quite enjoyable. Congrats on the house and new bebe nephew/neice, and hope you make it home for the holidays. Cheers! Maya -PS. found you at Miss Doxie's place. She is a funny elf, no?
maya, glad to hear the JSY program worked for someone else! The best part about it so far, is when you find yourself really, really liking someone you can remain just distracted enough to not worry all the time if they like you back.
Posted by Hannah Beth on December 21, 2005 10:27 AM
