A few weeks ago a friend and I were talking and he told me that in a fit of stress and worry he'd written out a list of goals for his life. They ranged from the normal, like "buy a house," to the personal, to the mundane, like "take a nap."
And it's not that I've never made a list of things I want to do, or resolutions or anything of that nature. It's that I've never really made a list of goals - things I really want to accomplish, come hell or high water. Things I want to do and see and experience in order to feel like I'm truly living my life.
And the list I scrawled out that night is far from complete, but it's a start.
Some of them are normal, some of them are personal and some of them are mundane. But they're all mine.
And as I was writing it I realized, these are all things I want to do now, or at least before I wrap up my third decade. It's probably a rush spurred on by Quarter of a Century angst, but I think they're all things that are possible to do in the next five years.
I think of the girl I was at 20, and the woman I am at 25 (eek! Not yet! Three days!), and they're, gratefully, very different people.
And as much as I'm a little freaked about the birthday, y'all realize a lot of it is play paranoia, right? Because I'm really happy with my life right now and I'm a bit proud of who I am.
And I have to say, I think I'll sort of like the 25 year old me and I'm looking a little forward to meeting the 30 year old me.
I just wonder what she'll have checked off and what new will be penciled in.
The notify has lots of goals. Don't you want to find out what they are?